Holy crap, another post already? Well, I was talking to my buddy Ghem a couple nights ago and he inspired this one.
I feel the need to write a post about the members of this community who have played a huge roll in me sticking around this time. I can never find the words when I am actually speaking to people, so I will try and type them instead. Although I am fairly certain that this will backfire as well (In retrospect- this didn’t quite work out as I planned. /facepalm)… I know I am not the easiest person to get along with, and I know that I can be so much less than warm to the people around me. These are merely defense mechanisms that have been built up over the years to keep myself safe. I am slowly trying to change these habits, open up and let people back in again…
In no particular order:
Phortank: I met Phort a couple of months after getting back in the game. The very first thing that we did together was run The Oculus. I say this because it is something that I will probably never forget. I was going for some of the meta achievements and asked my new guild if anyone would come with me, and Phort volunteered. Ever since that day we have become very close. We run things together, talk in vent all of the time, and I have even been fortunate enough to be able to meet his beautiful daughter. Phort has pretty much been my rock since I came back, and I am not so sure that he knows that. Players have come and gone, but he has been the one constant in my life since returning to Azeroth. I have laughed with him, cried with him and shared some of my favourite WoW moments with him. My love for him is so completely unconditional and I cannot imagine my life without him.
Plucker: Pluck is a relatively new name on this list. He joined my former guild less than a year ago, but he has become a very important and special person to me. We have very similar histories and share a lot of common baggage. Pluck and I have shared many late night vent conversations about some heavy subjects that I wouldn’t dream talking with others about. The best thing I like about Pluck? No matter how serious things get, he can always make me laugh. Especially when he brings up his large green sack… He even called me long distance from a casino, on his birthday, just to chat. I wish I could tell him just how much of a difference he has made to me. Given time, I know that our friendship will only grow stronger and maybe I can find the balls to tell him.
Owkono: I am not even sure where to begin with Owk. He is very much like me in that he does not like to let people in, but we have been slowly breaking each others’ walls down. He is always willing to drop what he is doing to help me out. If I need a gem, help with dailies, transmog run or even just to talk, I can count on Owkono to be there for me. We even got to go and have some cocktails when he was in my city for work. The one action that speaks volumes to me is when that nasty Message of the Day was posted about me in my former guild. Owkono not only pulled it down, but defended me despite losing the favor of the GM and other guildies. He then offered his bank guild so that we could remain together in peace. We are now running that guild together (with a raid team and everything!) and I cannot imagine doing this task with anyone else.
Kuwahara: Another one I am not sure where to start… Kuwa has basically been the love of my Warcraft life since I returned. I met him through some friends, but we didn’t really talk until we ran into each other in LFR (DS) one night. He wanted me to roll on the polearm for his druid (I was on my hunter), but instead we hit it off. Since that fateful night, a day rarely goes by that we are not in contact somehow. A text message, a phone/Skype call, even just in-game whispers. I legitimately love this man, and I know that he loves me back. He has always been there for me, and has helped me through some rough times when no one else could be found. He is another person who stands up for me whenever anything less than awesome is said about me. He has started arguments in Trade/Party/Instance chat whenever my name is even mentioned with the slightest negative connotation. And of course, has given other players a piece of his mind if they happen to bad mouth me and he hears about it. We have even talked about the possibility of things that may happen outside of Azeroth… But until then I will remain his crazy Canadian WoW Princess…
Shambols: Shambols has now been out of the game a few months, which was not a complete surprise. But it was nevertheless devastating, as we have no other means of communication. Shambols knows more about me and my past than anyone else in my life, including my family. There have been some painful events that I just never shared with anyone else, but for some reason I felt so comfortable with Shambols and he allowed me to open up, and he did in return. There were some days that we couldn’t catch each other online, so we would send letters via in-game mail just to say hey. I actually kept copies of a few of them so that I am able to look back and smile. I miss Shambols more than he will probably ever know.
Legionarii: Legion is one of my favourite people on earth, and another one who has been out of the game for a while now. We still keep in contact through text messages and his random trolling of my vent. Legion and I met on Twitter and we became close friends very quickly. There even came a time when he transferred his main to my realm and joined my guild. No matter what kind of day I am having, Legion can make me smile. He is such an amazing person and cares so deeply about making others smile and laugh; sometimes completely forgetting about himself. His selflessness is astounding, and I will miss his company until the day he returns. Until then I will always have “Chhaaaaiiiiin liiiiightnin’!!!!!!”. :)
Ghemit: Not that Ghem needs an introduction, but I will give you some history. I was one of Ghem’s first-ish Twitter followers and he followed me back. We started talking and finally added each other to realid because there was this instant connection between us. Ghem is now one of my best friends in the entire world. I know that no matter what I can always text or call him and he knows that he can do the same. He has been there when no one else bothered to care. He is the strongest, sweetest and most genuine person that I have ever met and is an amazing friend. I feel so lucky and blessed that I met Ghem and I have come to believe that our meeting was not just a coincidence, but fate. It was written in the stars that we were to find each other. I love Ghem, I will always love Ghem and he is a large portion of my world and that is how I would like it to stay.
Feelings are hard. I hope to one day actually thank the above mentioned with spoken words rather than hiding behind written ones. I just need them to know that I think about them everyday and without them, I am not sure that I would have the strength to get up some days.
Thank you, again, to this beautiful community. I am thankful of everyone who has touched my life and made me a better person. I will continue working on myself, so don’t give up on me yet! Much, MUCH love goes out to you all.